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Hi all! Welcome back to Monday weigh in. I didn’t weigh in last week because it was my first wedding anniversary, but now it’s time to face the music and see what kind of damage (if any) there is to deal with.

Well, today is the day I haven’t been dreading but have been…not looking forward to. Like I said before, I don’t regret fully enjoying my anniversary weekend, but that was followed with a lot of time spent on the road and out of the house. Food choices weren’t exactly abundant.

I tried the best I could, and that’s what matters. I’m still in a good place mentally.

SW: 256

LW: —

CW: 248

In a good place mentally despite the fact that I’ve gained since the last week I weighed in.

I know why it happened; that’s what’s important. Yeah, I’m a bit unhappy about it, but I have gained before and that hasn’t stopped me from losing the weight. I can and will lose this weight just like I have lost weight before.

And even with the gain today, I have accomplished an awesome non-scale victory that I have been working towards:

I power walked a mile in under twenty minutes! Yay!

So with that to keep me going, I keep on with my new gym plan and I am trying to drink more water. I have no doubt that I can get the weight back off in the next couple of weeks.

How are you doing? How is your fitness journey coming along?

Yes, the time has come.

I have been eligible to work in Australia since about maybe last August or so. (I can’t quite recall.) I haven’t gone for a job, though, because I’ve been working at home all this time and getting paid to do what I love. The pay isn’t the greatest, but it isn’t bad either. I have enough to pay my bills each month and have a little bit left over.

A receptionist job has become available at the company where my husband works. Already there are a bunch of pluses on my plus and negative list just because of that. We don’t have to buy another car. I don’t have to take the train every day. I already have connections at that company.

But then come the negatives. Unless he schedules them on Thursdays (which would be my day off), no more road trips with Journy. And because it’s Thursday and not Friday, no more overnight trips either. There’s also the likely possibility I will have to stop writing at some of the places I write at because I simply won’t have the time.

Back to the positives, I get to be around office supplies all day *drool*, I get to sort mail *drool*, and there will be paid maternity leave.

But do I want to step back from all I have built for the past year and a half? I won’t give it up, but I definitely don’t think I can do what I am doing now with an outside the home job to go to.

I know there is a possibility I might not even get the job, but I can’t go in there betting that I won’t. That would be just silly and there is the chance that, yes, I might get it.

Another thing is that I will have to start paying on another student loan come July or August. I’m pretty sure I can manage it (I have yet to do the math), but that will just serve to make things even tighter. For the next ten years. Bah. I’m impatient. I want to pay off these loans sooner than that, but I don’t know how.

Journy says it’s completely my choice, but I kind of feel like I have to…

If you know me, you know that I like celebrating the good things in my life by doing good things for others.

I have three contests going on three sites (to celebrate my first wedding anniversary May 5th) and a lot of chocolate to give away, so check them all out!

http://www.fictionscribe.com/first-wedding-anniversary-comment-contest/
http://www.thebookstacks.com/a-book-by-any-other-name-anniversary/
http://www.longrelationships.com/first-wedding-anniversary-comment-contest/

Spread the love! (And the chocolate!)

That’s right; I’m not weighing in today.

Today I am taking a break from dieting, exercise, and everything else. Today is the day I truly enjoy myself…and my husband.

May 5^th is the day I celebrate my first wedding anniversary. Last year at this time I was nervously pacing and getting everything together so I could have the wedding I had dreamed of, getting married to the man I had always dreamed of.

We met online, me from the US and him from Australia. We went through a lot of hard times because of distance and so-called ‘friends’. But we made it through and met in person when I took a plane ride to Australia nearly a year to the day after we met online.

Seven months after we started living together, we got married at the local park, surrounded by our friends.

It wasn’t long after that that I got serious about my getting healthier. I knew that if I kept on my current track, my life would probably be a lot shorter and with a lot more complications. I’m a greedy sort and want all the time I can get with my husband, so I began on my journey.

Nearly a year later, celebrating our first anniversary, I am more in love with my husband than ever and I love myself as well. We have lived, learned and grown so much in the last year and the time has gone by so fast.

I can only hope that we see the success and abundance of love this year that we had sustain us last year.

Be well and happy.

I can tell you one thing, I have never felt such relief at having a TOM in my entire life. After being nearly two weeks late (and not pregnant - I took tests), I finally have it. It’s a nasty, painful go this time, but I’m still thankful it’s happening. It means something in my body is actually working.

I’m kind of nervous about the whole hormone therapy thing, but that’s not at all a definite thing or anything I should be worrying about right now. I should be concentrating on the fact that my body can have a period all its own.

I feel my strength with this whole dieting thing waning a bit as time of month cravings are hitting me hard and I want things that will comfort me. What I need to find is non-food things that are comforting.

I have been working on my novel today, which makes me feel great, so that helps. If any ladies out there have a daughter who hates/’hates’ them or any one of you hate your mother, let me know. I might need to ask you a few questions. (I am by no means on good terms with my own mother, but I’m lacking when it comes to the ’scathing’ dialogue.)

My first wedding anniversary is coming up next Monday and I’m very excited about that. It’s going to be my ‘diet doesn’t count’ day as well so the husband and I can enjoy ourselves to the absolute fullest.

Well, it’s time to get back to the ol’ novel.

I was going to write this yesterday, but I was so tired…

I went into the doctor and:

1. Found out I’m not pregnant
2. Was told I needed to go to a specialist because I might need hormone therapy
3. Got something to control my nausea and it’s working so far. I even have a little bit of an appetite today.

He told me that since I have been on the South Beach Diet (no breads, pasta, rice, potatoes, etc) for this long, I should start experimenting with foods to see what really makes me tired and what doesn’t. I know rice does full force, some noodles a bit less so. I’m probably going to experiment with pumpkin first. I love pumpkin and, yes, it has a high GI, but I’ve never noticed problems with it in the past.

Also, on another note, I’m probably one of the many lactose intolerant. I’m not completely sure (and a bit sure because unless it’s in a chai, I think soy milk is nasty), but it’s pretty safe to assume.

So that’s what’s going on with me at the moment…

I’m quite tired and just want to relax for a while… Not that it will happen, but I can wish, right?

Well, there it is. I’m going to the doctor. I have to call and make an appointment today. Hopefully I can get in on Thursday, but it might be next week instead.

I have a lot (and by ‘a lot’ I mean deep-rooted, serious, and by the dozens) issues with going to doctors. From the going to the doctor to the doctors, I’m just a big ball o’ issues.

But I have to. I can’t do this anymore. I know in the past I have said I should go to the doc and probably would…eventually, but this is a whole new ballpark. (And I swear I’m going to scream if I start crying before I finish typing this.)

I mean, I enjoy losing four pounds in a week any time, but when it’s because I feel gross most of the time (I have a late afternoon window when I feel food in my stomach is not an evil thing) I think something just might be wrong. Plus, I would just really like to get through a day without crying, as I seem to have an inability to do so lately. (Today is out. I cried this morning.)

So cross your fingers for me that I get Thursday. Or tomorrow. Hubby has a trip, but I could go along and we could go to the doc straight after.

But anyway, cross your fingers it’s soon. (No crossing for Friday, non-Australians. It’s a holiday here.) I can’t take much more of this without some relief. Or at the least, some answers.

EDIT: It turns out my doctor is working the holiday and I go in on Friday. Phew!

Time to weigh in and see if anything has changed from last week.

Here goes… (SW = Starting Weight, LWI = Last Weigh In, CW = Current Weight)

SW: 256

LWI: 248

CW: 244

Well, well, well…

I’m kind of not sure what to say, to be honest. I’m definitely happy, that’s for sure. I didn’t really expect this. I suppose I should have, looking back on the stomach upset I’ve had for a little while now, but I guess I have been so focused on other things that I’ve been eating right but not thinking about the results.

I suppose that’s a good thing. Sometimes I get a little too focused on the numbers and that upsets me. This past week has been so crazy that it took my focus away, and I’m glad. Today was definitely a pleasant surprise.

Plus, I only have one pound to go before I’ve lose five percent of my body weight. Yay! I’m very happy about that. Also, my BMI is finally under 40, which is even more awesome.

Honestly, I’m a bit gobsmacked. I set the goal of 244 by my wedding anniversary (May 5^th), but there was always that nugget of doubt telling me I wouldn’t get there in that time. And now I have. Early, even.

I’m not going to set another goal right now because I have yet to go through time of month, which usually means a weight spike. Actually, I’m not setting a goal loss. I do have the goal to at least maintain until the anniversary.

Yay!

I grew up without a strong feminine influence in my life. My mother briefly touched on the basics - be careful with the razor when you decide to start shaving your legs, this is how you put a pad on (she was strictly against tampons) - but at no point did I feel I could talk to her about feminine things.

The same goes for other female family members. If I talked to any of them, what was said in confidence would spread around faster than fire in a dried out forest.

And female friends? Well, we just didn’t talk about it. Period. (No pun intended.)

So it’s frustrating for me when I have womanly questions or problems that I’d like to talk to a woman about.

I know I mostly just want to have a whinge with someone who will truly understand, but I have questions, too. With no female influence in my life while I was growing up, I’m sadly lacking in the female knowledge department. Yeah, I can google, but that’s not the same as talking with someone.

There is a friend of mine I can talk to about these things now, but she hasn’t been online for a while.

Gah. I don’t honestly know the point to this post. I guess I just wanted to complain a bit.

Well, I’m doing better than I was yesterday, that’s for sure. The headache is almost completely gone and faint waves of nausea only come and go instead of staying. I really don’t want to eat for some reason, but I’ll probably have a cup of broth later.

And to brighten my day and help celebrate Reader Appreciation Day, I would like to direct you to Long Relationships where I am holding a contest that links up with Jenera’s contest (read the directions at LR, first). Jenera doesn’t know that I’m holding the contest (which will go up on LR an hour or so (?) after I post this), so I’m very eagerly awaiting her finding out.

Tee hee.